simply sleep

July 5, 2008 at 4:20 am (Uncategorized)

Too early in the morning I find myself with heavy eyes. Old mascara smeared on my pillows. I’m physically drained but I can’t seem to just simply

Fall asleep.

I’ve imagined quiet footsteps cracking twigs on my jungle like side yard, and then a very silent tap on my sliding door… It’s not coming.

My phone oddly remains quiet.

With no one to blame

I feel abandoned.

Numbness.

All contained in one damn place! I wish a tear could drop but it’s not even like that. Not right now.

In a room where counting sheep doesn’t fucking work,

I dwell the early mornings.

And count these instead…

Sans good night

Sans hello

Sans good bye

Sans sweetest dreams

Sans warmth…

Sans sleep.